She was sharing her story of retiring from traveling and art to jumping blindly into the world of peer-to-peer sales, turning her Kitchen Table company into a multi-million dollar biz force to be reckoned with. It’s hard to listen to stories like these, and wonder where you’ve gone wrong. How is it that life is still revolving around your own kitchen table? What is keeping you from growing it all to the “next level”?
I’m still grappling with these questions for myself. I’ve got all sorts of ideas. But, the thing about that podcast that really struck home was hearing Tracy talk about how the work is never done. The wondering is never done. The fear and the growth and the constant risk-taking, grappling, and sustainability…is just so constant. Even once you’ve reached “success.”
Her honest insight brought me relief and exasperation.
Relieved because it’s nice to know we’re all playing the balance game, the betterment game, the everyday living-and-breathing game.
Exasperated because I want there to be a day when the game slows. Like, measurably. I want to have time to go for long runs, to sit and hold my growing children, play without distraction with the boifrund. I feel like I know people who have reached this. They live comfortably and with ease. We’ve done dinner with people who make me marvel. They sit back assured and relaxed. An air of confidence, a lack of rushing. I so usually feel rushed. Frantic to catch up. Treading water. So many things to do, so little time.
Perhaps it’s because I’ve shifted from one world view to another and am catching up. Perhaps it’s because I’m just a terrible manager of time. Or sock drawers. Or fresh veggies. But, I feel like I’m running all the time. And tapped out. And like life is unsustainable and exhausting too much of the time.
Is this just me? Is this a girl thing? Is this adrenal fatigue talking?
Whenever I start spinning with questions such as these, I find myself sitting in the kitchen. Wanting to make something. Wanting to create a cure. If not a long-term cure, a short term something that’s tangible and comforting, a reminder that we create sustenance one meal at a time. And not having the future all figured out it okay. And having a warm belly on an autumn day is sometime enough.
This delightful little recipe is soothing and wondrous. It’s hearty enough to enjoy as a meal. Quick enough to make after a big long workday. And meat free. Because…why not be good to your budget one night a week?
Maybe all those pennies we save on grassfed meat tonight will become a permanent vacation home in Costa Rica.
…Mmmm….Who needs to run away when you’ve got 3-ingredient Autumn Soup right at home?
- 2 large sweet potatoes
- 6 ounces havarti cheese
- 4-5 cups beef broth (or chicken, or veggie)
- salt & pepper
- Microwave sweet potatoes for 10 minutes, until tender.
- Remove peels. Toss in Vitamix.
- Add havarti. Add broth.
- Blend until smooth and steamy.
- About 2 minutes.
- Salt and pepper to taste.